Oh here we go again: covid, what covid? Say the politicians who want a drink

Politicians: are they stupid or are their heads just so far bedded im the sand to care?

First it was Boris, and now his posssee are breaking the very rules they’ve been setting, giving daily (some would call it) scare-mongering briefings and filling up column space in national newspapers.

Earlier today I read that Boris’ minions had a right old knees up in a pub. A pub that wasn’t supposed to not serve alcohol after 6pm (FYI it was after said hour).

From left to right, Labour’s Alan Davies and Conservativea Paul Davis, Darren Miller and Nick Ramsey. Courtesy of BBC

What will they receive? A slap on the risk no doubt, perhaps a guffaw from Boris but no fine, no arrest, no nothing of consequence, quite unlike the rest of us who face a whopping grwat fine for simply going for a walk in a ‘beauty spot’ or sitting on a bench having a coffee because it’s seen as picnicking.

Now, I’m not one for conspiracy theories but is there something we don’t know? Just recently the PM posted on Facebook book about staying home and saving lives.

Not so long ago Boris posted something similar. It’s now not there. Hmm….

The ‘perpetrators ‘ amounted to four members of Parliament, Labour’s Alan Davirs and Conservatives Paul Davies, Darren Miller and Nick Ramsey.

So who and what are supposed to believe? And is it really us general public really the ones doing the spreading?

BBC Wales has been told Labour Member of the Senedd Alun Davies (who’s Twiter account has been disabled) and two others were involved.

A spokesman for the group told the BBC That he had been ‘suspended from the privileges of Senedd Labour Group membership while an investigation takes place into this alleged incident,’ a spokesman for the group told the BBC.

He and two Tories deny breaking rules.

My family are self isolating, I am any going out for essentials and yes, its lonely, boring, scary; schools are closing and businesses are in turmoil.

Boris, sort yourself out. Imply your guidelines on yourself and your staff and stop this ridiculous and deliberate floatation of the law, or guidelines should you wish to call it.

We are looking to you for advice but how can we trust you? Its a farcical of example to say (as I recently posted) ‘do as I say, not as I do’.

Covid is costing more and more lives as this conditions. I’m writing this from hospital where beds are being emptying almost hourly. Its devastating. Alarms are going off constantly, staff are literally running to patients.

This is a PANDEMIC Mr Prime minister, not a joke. And as numbers rise daily you have to ask yourself ‘are you doing enough?’

Step it up and take your responsibility as serious as we (with some selfish people putting police and hospitals under unprecedented pressure’ at risk.

Do yourself and us a favour and stop playing games.

And thank God that my 95 year old grandmother is finally getting a vaccine. I’ve only seen her on Skype since Christmas 2019 and although we talk regularly I miss her terribly.

I pray that we all get is soon 🙏 (not covid is that is, just the importance of sticking to the rules!


Whats in your mirror today?

Mirror mirror on the wall, who’s the fairest of them all? Image from Steemit

When you look in the mirror what do you see?

Is it an image of success? Or one of failure? It’s a strong word that. Failure. And I believe we use it way too much. Because really, just having got out of bed and fixed the sheets is a success. If you’ve got a pet you’ve probably fed it and possibly yourself. You may have said a prayer if you’re a religious person. And most of us will already have an idea of what we want to do with our day and been in contact with friends or family.

So really, the day will have got off to a fairly good start.

But have you said anything positive to or about yourself today? Or have you focused on the negatives? The washing up left in the sink from last night’s dinner or the hoovering that needs doing?

I’ve written recently about self judgement and the ways in which others judge us. Or at least, the way we think they’re judging us.

I’ve been in hospital not too long ago and when going through my medical history and what medication I’m on, the nurse’s voice often turns to a bit of a whisper when going on to ask about my alcohol consumption and what I’m doing about it.

Immediately I feel judged and ashamed. I feel like a failure.

The image of the below was sent to me when I was going through a particularly tough time. And when I spoke to friend of mine who is very religious she told me to rememver that Jesus doesn’t judge me. He loves me. And he forgives me. That’s positive self talk.

So why do we judge ourselves so harshly?

If we take the statement from the image and apply it to ourselves we face the question of why we allow ourselves to believe the judgements of others or our assumption of their judgements?

Perhaps instead we shout be asking: what is that person thinking and feeling? Can we help them? The obvious reaction might be to feel resentment towards them but does that help us ourselves or them?

I’ve heard it said that there is no such thing as a selfless good deed. But maybe this is the exception to the rule.

I don’t have the answers to any of these questions but they’ve been circling round in my head and I’d love to hear what anyone’s thoughts are. (if you’d read this post this far. I know it’s a bit of a ramble).

And there I go again – self judgement and assuming no one will find it interesting. I want to read more into what has been written on the topic and I’ll blog about what I find out.

The dangers of online symptom checkers…

Image from Health Snap

So last week someone I live with was in hospital with a nasty stomach bug. Fortunately he seems to have made a full recovery and is back home. But obviously when I started to develop minor symptoms I panicked. I went onto WebMD and put in my symptoms to the site’s checker service and quite frankly it was frightening.

Apparently there’s a whole host of things I could have – and that’s without even saying about the housemate’s recent hospitalisation with the bug.

I would urge everyone to be cautious when using these sites. The last thing you need when you’re not feeling on top form is to be told a bit of bloating needs urgent care… Pretty much everything says go to a&e, even though it might just be a bit of a stomach upset.

And apparently I’m not the only person who feels this way. As posted in the Henry Ford Blog:

For example: You wake up in the middle of the night with a pain in the lower left side of your stomach. You get up and walk around, but it doesn’t go away. So you search the internet for “left-side stomach pain.” You find out it could be constipation, or diverticulitis, or kidney stones, or a bladder infection, or gas — or cancer. Your mind goes right to the cancer. Oh no, what if it’s pancreatic cancer? And then you can’t sleep, so you keep surfing.”

Unfortunately my Dr’s surgery has quite an unsympathetic receptionist and told me I have to wait until tomorrow (now today) to speak to a doctor on the ‘gp advice line’. Well that service only lasts for one hour and I have tried. But after being on hold for at least 40 minutes it shut off so I’ll just have to try again tomorrow and hope for more success.I’m not too concerned; I think like many others at this time I’m just being uber-precautious.

Just everyone, be careful about what you read online. Right now we all need to stay safe from coronavirus and the last thing we need is more stress. Cos let’s face it – hospital is awful at the best of times, but when being there puts you at risk of a worse disease, well, what’s the best option. Do you go for treatment? Or do you stay home and hope to battle through it?

Your guess is as good as mine on this one.

Coronavirus: recovery of a different nature

Well this is not the kind of thing I had expected in my wildest dreams to be writing.
I’m not even going to try and jazz it up with a DM style drop intro or attempt to be smart or witty with what I write.
The truth is what matters right now. We are all being told different things from different places, people and things.
Some sites and papers, mentioning no names, are scare mongering about coronavirus.
I’m sticking to BBC news and official government websites..
A few nights ago we had paramedics round – 7 or 8 hours after I made the call such was the demand–for my fiance. He was given the all clear but the next day our local GP effectively pooh-poohed what they’d said, decided he was indeed showing symptoms, and so we are now basically on house arrest.
We have one flimsy mask each, which we have been told have a shelf life of around 3 hrs. Great. But better than nothing I suppose. I say we have one each – we did, but Stew was sick in his so is now using one of my bed time eye masks instead,
The paramedics told me they have oodles of beds but not enough staff. My best friend, a GP, spent almost an hour trying to get through to 999 for a patient.
Earlier in the week I joined my neighbourhood the 8pm clap for NHS staff. They’re doing everything they can, but as has been quoted on the news, this is more a plague than a virus.
I’m now terrified of touching literally anything. I’ve possibly made myself worse, immune system wise, by going a bit crazy with sanitising our house, but what else can I do? After waiting hours for an ambulance why was my fiance not tested? Why was I not?
We can now no longer be in the same room ‘just in case’.
It seems only those at death’s door are taken notice of and by then it’s too late.
And as for those critically ill but not displaying CV symptoms…. Well, you’re on your own mate. The paramedic I spoke to told me in no meek terms that they’re effectively ignoring all other call outs.
And it still took 7 hrs for them to get to us, with three 999 calls in the interim as things got worse…
Basically I’m scared. For him, for me, for everyone I know and love and for the population as a whole.
And also
I just want a hug.
Stay safe everyone and thank you to those still fighting to help us.

Little random acts of kindness

Image from customerfaithful.com

Addiction makes us selfish. It’s a disease of me me me me me and no one else. At least that’s how it’s been for me, whether or not I see it at the time.

Yesterday I was really touched when a total stranger helped me out at a Costa coffee shop till point.

I only had a £5 note on me – it was in the hospital and I’d left everything else on the ward – and my bill for a pot of fruit and a coffee came to £5.20.

I was halfway through telling the barista I’d skip on the fruit pot when said man tapped me on the shoulder and held out some change.

Ok, so it was only 20p, but that’s not the point. The point is he had no idea who I was, nor me him, and yet he chose to help me.

It’s reinstated my faith in humanity somewhat. There really are some people to whom kindness comes as second nature.

He had no need or reason to foot the reminder of my bill, nor did he ask for anything in return. Some things just stick out in your memory and that certainly will.

According to research helping others can:

  • reduce stress  
  • improve emotional wellbeing
  • benefit physical health
  • bring a sense of belonging and reduce isolation
  • get rid of negative feelings

However I don’t think the man who helped me had any ulterior motives. I’m going to make it my mission to be less self-centered and follow in his footsteps by being kinder to others.